A Life in the Day
I love my children. With all my heart. They are two of my most favorite people. I’ve always been proud of them. I never say, “I’m ashamed of you.” I never say, “You are stupid.” I never say, “I’m disappointed in you.” They are each unique, independent thinkers with amazing personalities. They love their family and share sibling-deep bonds with their cousins. There is no doubt that they are FIERCELY LOYAL to their friends, even when some of those friends have been anything but. They are not perfect but they are perfection to me. They were prayed for in the years prior to conception. They’ve been prayed over, prayed for, and they’ve done the same for many others. Those prayers started with our great, great, and more great grandparents, who also prayed for Ray and me. They prayed that we would be able to have children and that we would be good parents. I am very thankful for all of those people and their faith in God. Without them, the events of today would be drastically different. While I have had many questions and doubts over the past few years, in general and lots more of those specifically in the last week, I do KNOW that God loves my children more than I do. We “trained them in the way they should go,” therefore I know that God will lead them further into His will.
My husband and I took out oldest child to drug rehab today. He’s 24 with so much promise before him. His child is a blonde haired, blue-eyed mini Kaleb. Our son was filled with a renewed sense of hope as we got closer to the CDS. The decision was his. Totally HIS. Yes, he’s had nudges to move in this direction. He had to want it. He was not going to be forced to do anything. It is HIS LIFE and he gets to choose the path he wants to travel. His recent post on Facebook, the lyrics to a Jake Owen song, “Startin’ With Me,” seems to be his current mantra. To say we are proud is an understatement. It takes GUTS to make this step and even moreso to do it alone. Tomorrow may not be promised, but preparing yourself to handle what may cone is imperative to reach the best outcome.